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Watch Me Unfold…The Root of My Transformation


Thank you, Pandora, for bringing me such enlightenment in the morning!  This song is an amazing interpretation of my thoughts.  It is the root of my transformation…truly.  My whole life, I have been so afraid of EVERYTHING!  I don’t know why, really, I just am.

By afraid, I mean that I over-think every situation, every decision, and every potential decision until I have overwhelmed myself with “what ifs” and “but then if this happens, that will happen, and so-and-so will be upset, which will lead to such-and-such”.

REALLY?  Who has time for all of that crap?!

I want to LIVE LIFE and just be grateful of each breathing moment God blesses to my loved ones and me.  I want to open my heart to Him and them.  After all, what else is there on this earth worth more than love?

Unfold By Marie Digby

what i can remember
is alot like water
trickling down a page
of the most beautiful colors
i can’t quite put my
finger down on the moment
that i became like … this

you see, i’m the bravest girl
you will ever come to meet
and yet i shrink down to nothing
at the thought of someone
really seeing me
i think my heart is wrapped around
and tangled up in winding weeds

but i don’t wanna go on living
being so afraid of showing
someone else my.. imperfections
even though my feet are trembling
and every word i say comes stumbling
i will bare it all.. watch me unfold
unfold

these hands that i hold
behind my back are
bound and broken by my own doing
and i can’t feel
anything, anymore
i need a touch to remind me
i’m still real..

my soul
it’s dying to be free
i can’t live the rest of my life
so guarded
it’s up to me to choose..
what kind of life i lead.

cause i don’t wanna go on living
being so afraid of showing
someone else my.. imperfections
even though my feet are trembling
and every word i say comes stumbling
i will bare it all.. watch me unfold
unfold

i will allow someone to love me
i will allow someone to love me…

love me.. love me…

Lyrics by Marie Digby

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Just Talk to Someone


We had our family reunion this weekend.  Why we have in the hottest week of Maryland’s year, I will never know!  But we had a great time.

In fact, the great time started in the car ride to the Eastern Shore.  Since it is a 2-1/2 hour drive alone, I had some time to reflect and pray.

Then, a minor epiphany.  Most of my family, with whom I frequently brag about as being close, did not actually have a real clue about what is going on in each others lives.

Don’t get me wrong, we all have a BLAST when we are together.  There is always some minor drama…always craziness.  But there is also always love and laughter. (i.e. when Uncle Glenn dumped the ice water bucket over my head! – I will add pics when he uploads them)

The truth of my epiphany glared at me.

“I” don’t take time to really open up to people, and consequently, I don’t really take time to actually call my family members and chat…just for poops and giggles.  I have been so shut off from everyone.  So, I made it a point to try and talk to everyone and let them know how much I loved them.  The results?  Some wonderfully enlightening conversations.

Sometimes, it just really helps to talk to someone, open your heart to them.  Let them open their heart to you.  Even if it is a stranger…or family.  I have had some of the most profound conversations with family, with people I barely know AND with family I barely know 🙂  in the past two weeks.  Maybe it is God sending me angels to help me through the tough times.

…it’s working!