Everyone kept asking me if I was nervous. Heck, it’s only been 11 years since I got my Bachelors…can’t be too bad.
btw, my Mommy sent me an email from her blackberry asking for a “first day of school” picture!<3 My heart melted right then. Sweet…but was I nervous?
Well, a lot is different now. Everything is electronic. I don’t own any of the fancy iThingies or eReaders or whatever. And Renting books is now an option? We used to call that a cork board at the student center back when I was in college. Typing during class would have been considered horribly rude…back then.
I was only mildly frazzled when I realized that I had 12 chapters to read and a several page personal assessment to complete before the first day of class, and the bookstore didn’t have my books, and then was closed for what seemed like forever! (Still don’t have 2 of my 4 books!)
Ok, so there was quite a bit to be nervous about. But I wasn’t.
Right now, I am personally a mess! Why else would I be blogging? seriously?
On one level, I can’t wait to absorb every morsel of information (btw, one class this term is Family Counseling), and use it to help my family through this mess of a life I have made for them.
Wow. I just said it.
Anyways, I have my “own agenda” planned for this educational journey I have embarked upon.
Then, I look at the professional side of it. Truly, I have always been a counselor or mother to people. It seems to be so instilled in me that I now could not imagine anything else. Because, see…my ULTIMATE goal is to be able to use what I learn help me have more knowledge about counseling and relational dynamics when I begin my independent living foster care home. (I would be lying to you if I said it wouldn’t be named Mama’s House or something similar.)
I have my “own agenda” once again.
In the meantime, I work in a vocations office at a convent. How would the skills of counseling NOT be beneficial in several real and potential opportunities? No pressure from work to get the skills, or to do well. I just get to use what I am already learning. Bonus!
What it all boils down to, is that I have no deadlines to finish…no pressures to do well. For me, the Masters degree at the end seems like it would be the icing on the cake.
Add the fact that I LOVE this stuff. I love the “hows” of why people function and how to help them and how to help myself and my own family. Throw a spiritual twist on it all, and how is that not Paradise?
Exactly. I was not nervous about tonight. I was excited.
Well, that is “my version” of the story. I think God has another version…last year, while volunteering at the Women’s Wellness Retreat where I work, I had an epiphany. I had been wanting for years to get my Masters, but never could decide on a field. That Saturday night, deep in contemplation, I heard God’s voice whisper in my ear.
I have always loved psychology, but never liked the clinical aspect. I literally never knew that a degree in Pastoral Counseling existed…until that weekend.
After I heard God’s whisper, I went down to my office (convenient, huh?) and looked up a degree on spiritual counseling and ended up at Loyola. When I read the description of the degree program, I realized what was right. Right then, at that very moment. It was such a celebration of emotion. So, this afternoon, when I walked onto campus, that elation was with me. I knew it was right.
I knew I was on the path God provided.
I knew I was there to learn.
And I was excited to absorb.
God’s way was even more announced when I realized that this very weekend, beginning TOMORROW, is the Women’s Wellness Retreat, at which I will be volunteering once again.
See? It doesn’t matter how I try to justify it…if it is God’s will, it shall be done. THAT is why I was not nervous. God’s honest truth! 😉